Lost her...

i love you but i have a confession to tell you(me) ''she looks into my eyes and laughs'' girl stop trying to be serious whats up? (her)''i sit beside her and look away as i whisper'' umm im gay i like girls and i have known for a while now(me) ''she looks disgusted and shocked all at once'' wow i have lost alot of friends and i didnt think i would lose you but i guess i will im sorry i hate gay people(her) ''tears streamed down my face'' im sorry but i had to let you know your my best friend and i love you(me) ''she walks away'' and as i watch her walk all the momerys good and bad fade away wow oh well thats what i get for being gay? was it worth it to lose 4 years of friendship for that? well that shows me what type of person she really was and now im going to be straight foward with everyone because no secrets lie inside anymore....

Simple....

Im a simple girl with simple mistakes with simple problems and simple personalities but my life isnt so simple it isnt simple when your dad is begging you for money because he has ran out of gas and it isnt simple when you feel lonely 24 hours of the day and it isnt simple when your grandma gets ill unexpectedly oh no this isnt simple life wasnt so bad befor but no one said it would be easy i look back and think wow how simple it would have been for me to do good in school or to do everything that was expected of me and now its a nightmare but only i can try to fix these situations idk how to right now but i will find a way through this....i know it....

Love....

Its so funny what love can do its great but dont go too deep oh no that is when things get bad you either get hurt or you hurt the one you love why does these things happen? i have no idea people change or you find another love because faqce it people there isnt a actual ''one'' out there because there are plently of people you might fall in love with but honestly you cant give your heart to just one person and expect it to be that way for the rest of your life ...it sucks huh? love does suck .....it hurts yes when you love someone so much but they dont love you back it hurts when they have changed completely and start to treat you bad it hurts when you wait for there phone call and they dont pick up ...yes it hurts...i wish i never fell for it all the lies and drama that eventually came in the end but you know who you are and i hope you know you broke my heart i have to let you go and i dont want to let go of that peice of the puzzle because you were there but now its all different ill remember you and wont forget our love but its not important anymore nothing is....

Slipping away....

She lays there all alone but i hear her moan and cry out for help i run over to her grab her hand and ask what can i do? she says im in pain please help i hold her tight yes im here as i massage her neck at a slow speed i tryed to figure out how and why did things get so bad she was all i ever had it hurt so bad but i knew she would make it she has too its like a nightmare that i cant go away from because she made things better now its all worse i stare at her and just think wow she was a amazeing woman and im so glad she was there she was unable to look in my eyes to see how hurt i am because her sight is gone but she still has that voice the voice of strength the voice of laughter that voice i have known all my life she isnt in the best condition but she doesnt complain because that just her .....i love you grandma ....